Heartspace

Chrysalis

My body has been going through mid life changes. My arms are mushy and hang, my face has more lines, more softening that causes it to hang. My shoulders have taken it’s toll , and froze up on me.

As I contemplate this phase of my life, butterflies would pass by, as I drove, in the phone, walking in my yard, eating lunch… everywhere!

Ok, so I thought to myself, I’m going through a change and I’ll come out a graceful butterfly.

I’m still waiting…

When I woke up this Sunday morning, chrysalis popped in my mind. I realized that I’m in a phase of life changing events, and my desire to be stillness is somewhat like the chrysalis phase of a butterfly.

In stillness, my life and my body evolves. Do less, do less my heart whispers, and my fears and anxiety shouts no, keep going, you will lose everything you worked for.

As I write this now, I ask, “Will I really lose everything I worked so hard for?”

If I look in tue surface, the answer is yes, when I look deeper, I realize that the experiences that shape me are never lost. They can never be undone, inexperience, unexplored, they are embedded in the rhythms of my life.

Fear is of the material mind. In this life, staying aligned and grounded in what is true, what is constant, what is steady.

The constant, is eternal life, and it’s ever changing nature, building upon what was. Living what is.

Milky Way Heartspace

When I started this blog, I followed my intuition. I already have another blog going but felt inspired to create this one.

The website name came about out of nowhere. Well part of it, heartspace, was what I called my time I created for myself. The time where I journaled, not only my thoughts but the intuitive wisdom that poured foreword. The writing that is inspired by these whispers that I felt, and transmuted into words of insight and encouragement for myself. And I really wanted to share them with someone, and so I decided to start this blog.

As I started to create the domain name, something out of the blue inspired me to call it milkyway heartspace.

Today I understand. The milky-way, to the ancients was the divine source of nourishment from the divine mother. The milkyway is where we drink the wisdom to grow our spiritual being, to be healed.

This is my intention, to share the messages that come through me, so that we may all be nourished by the great nourishing milk of infinite wisdom and reality.

In Confidence

In this moment of my life, I finally feel a confidence that is grounding and nourishing to my soul. A feeling of my being and my body, integrated and aligned.

Before, whenever I felt confident in myself, I did notice this hint of ….hummm…what I feel now as arrogance. I think that’s what I thought confidence was, a sort of arrogance. In those moments, when I felt that type of confidence, I also felt a dark feeling of loneliness, and as if I were going to fall.

Confidence now feels different.

It feels alive, and growing. Confidence is knowing my skills and function in this world, and feeling depth of truth, through experiences and sensations in my body. Truth of my existence here and now, of my human imperfection, even in moments I instinctually strive for excellence and perfection! (lol)

This confidence comes from years of seeking and searching, this is NOT an overnight success story to confidence. (and if you read my thoughts on success, you already get that 🙂 ) I feel trust in myself and life itself (basically, ’cause this is an ongoing practice) , and maybe it comes with experience, and maybe with the inner work in circle, and my Buddhist practices as my foundation to understanding and observing of life, that I see a little more clearly.

Day by day, I intend to polish my life, clear out the impurities of the past and present, to create clarity of truth, clarity of perception through all sensations, as I swim in the muddy waters of life. I will reach out my hand, in the intention to move through and cleanse our thoughts, our words, our actions, and our waters will once again become crystal clear.

Always Moving Forward

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We are always moving forward, no matter how backwards something seems. If we started using letters instead of email, or home phones instead of cell phones, most people would think that we are going backwards.

Innovation and newness of something, doesn’t always indicate a forward movement. It could actually be a loop or just what needs to be, in order for everything else to be in its perfect place. We’ve been trained to think that the newest updated gadget, idea, etc. is moving us forward. However, no matter what we do or don’t do, time keeps us going forward.

More importantly, HOW we move forward, and what we are creating on a level of human connection with all of life, this is what our focus should be. How does it FEEEEEL?

Our feelings are the motivators, the conspirators to inspiration. Think about it. If something feels excruciatingly painful to your heart, we find a way to relieve that feeling. We’re looking for happiness, no matter what shape or form it’s in.

Happiness is found in our own backyard. Reflecting on our self, without blame or judgement, supporting one another without shame.

Moving forward together as one whole planet, together with the universe, no matter WHAT we do, but focus on HOW we move.

With love~Stacy

Listening with the Ear of the Wind

~Ear of the Wind ~

When most people listen, they listen with the ears of their own filters.

Most listen to respond, to blurt out what is in their head, in their own heart. Wanting to be heard. To influence. To be right.

Listening with the ear of the wind, it has no judgement, it has no opinion, or response. The ear of the wind, allows all to blow through. To hear what wants to be heard, to hear the words beneath the words, to feel the heart of the wind of breath.

Ear of the wind passes through every nook and cranny, and only takes with it truth of the heart.

Success

As I end this year, and I reflect on the accomplishments, I’m feeling like a failure.

I put in so much effort, time, and money into programs to build a business that is heart centered, that is honest, that is transformational and empowering, so that we can evolve as humans, as co-creators of our society. As I dive into this feeling of failure, I feel as though I’m small again, this child that just couldn’t succeed.

So, now I ask myself, what does success look like to me? What does success mean? How do I even know when I am successful?

I reflected on those questions… and I didn’t really have any answers. Ha!! I guess that’s why I hadn’t felt successful.

Then I realized that I was hiding behind a belief. The belief that success meant I had more than enough money than I needed, and life was easy, and good. And I realized that this was a childhood definition. This was not a belief based on the reality of life.

What came to mind was to start to define wealth. Wealth to me was abundance of health, time, energy, and money. Rich meant, rich with love.

From this thought process, it came to me that success actually meant that I kept moving through the hardships, the challenges, the stressors, the frustrations, and the sadness. That I kept going no matter how tough things got, and I am still here. I am still living and breathing.

With this new profound meaning of success, I feel successful every day, every moment of my life. I choose to keep moving forward, despite the struggles. And today, I live another day. Because I have chosen life. This is Success!

Intent: I hope sharing my thoughts and experience will spark within you a light to explore more deeply the meanings of our beliefs, where they are from a past that no longer applies to our life, or if a new profundity is brewing.

Life of Creation Over Fear

We all have used our past experiences to make decisions for our future.
I find myself having a tough time making decisions, and trying to figure out what I really want to do, and wondering if it’s all going to work, is it a wise investment of my time, energy and money?

There’s this tugging and pulling from my logic and from my desire.
What normally happens is that I’m in this indecisive stuck feeling, until something painful happens, and suddenly my body kicks in and says , “Ok, I decided that I’m going to ….” and it’s done.

After a grueling battle, I find the tie breaker, in the truth, in my body. There’s no back and forth, no hemming or hawing, it just IS, and no other doubts are allowed in.
This is my journey to a place where I allow myself to listen to the inner whispers of wisdom, and follow the path of truth BEFORE I’m experiencing the pain and the suffering. I’ve finally got to a place of understanding.

We have a choice.

A choice on how we want to make decisions, from fear or through creation.

Fear based decisions utilize the past experiences of our life, trying to avoid some pain, discomfort, or negative consequences.

Creation based decisions accesses the creative mind, the mind of the present and the vision of where we want to be.

This is the mind’s role, choosing through creation or fear. How do we create a new shift? We begin with creation, with intention, in honoring the body’s wisdom. It begins with our heart’s intention.

When we come to our hearts desire, in the deepest layers that bring pleasure and joy to ourselves, the deep meaning, the essential reason of our desire, this is clarity. Clarity is the deep rooted presuppose of how e truly want to feel, the layers that run deep in our bones, that have been growing roots from our ancestral lineage o f humanity.

Second, we create and visualize what we want from the mind. Create the end result, I’m not referring to the decision itself, but the results of the decision. Imagine in your mind’s eye how your life could feel, how it could look like, sound like, taste like, and smell like? What value will that bring to you? to others?

Third, we notice what feels true in our bodies. What feels expansive, or tingly, or exciting, or activating? We feel it in our bones. We feel it in our gut. We feel it in our heart. WE FEEL IT. It’s undeniable like a raging wave, your body has taken over.

When all three aspects are aligned, the heart, the mind, and the body, our decisions are able to be carried out with confidence, with determination, and with true heart. This happens over time, we must honor the timing of all that needs to be aligned, and trust in all that we are experiencing.

This is how we manifest our truth into our reality of our lives through creation. ~with love

Am I Alone?

It’s Tuesday night after 8:00pm, I’m drained, my eyes are burning from working all day, my lips are parched, my head buzzing, I’m tired and my teeth clenched. The wind is whipping outside, and all I can think of is sleep. But I’m so determined to write a blog once a week because I believe this practice of sharing our experiences is life changing for my, want to be hidden self, and for those who can relate. Am I alone?

At this time, when the Covid-19 virus is on the lips and ears of the world, I feel so overworked more than ever, and all around me people are supporting those who are getting cabin fever, are having family time, who don’t know what else to do as they distance themselves socially and quarantined for at least 14 days. I’m going into work, one of the “essentials”, daily, working more than ever. I’m holding 2 full-time positions and supporting 1 position as a manager, which I’ve been doing for the past 7 months! Am I alone?

My life has not changed.

My life is a social distance.

When I have a day off, I want to have my own shelter in place, in my cozy home, and don’t want to ever leave.

These are the things I noticed in my life. Am I alone?

I wonder, what is wrong with me? My whole life has become a practice of social distancing before social distancing was a thing. I enacted a shelter in place every weekend and loved everyone second of it. I long for the peace of slow and easy, to be able to breathe, to hear nothingness… What is it that curses me? Am I alone?

The prison I’ve built up in my mind. The things I tell myself, that push and prod me, and sometimes torture myself into accomplishing other people’s goals.

When will I ever allow myself to rest?

When can I get a break?

When can I say NO?

When WILL I say NO?

Why won’t I say NO?

How could I say NO?

When I’m willing to love myself, and fully embrace my needs, and taking care of ME, and letting go of this human attachments to the pleasures of my comforts, or a least what i think brings me the comforts of stability, and knowing what’s to come.

But who know what’s to come? Truly no one knows what our futures has in store for us. No one can predict the future, but one can see the vision of what’s ahead by looking at what is in the moment, and we can always change our destiny. Vision gives us this ability to see our current path ahead, and allows us to make shifts and adjustments as needed. I feel this is true to my heart. And from today, I’ll follow that feeling that connects us all, that is greater than the Universe, that which is the law of the Universe and to which the Universe and everything that connects to it is oneness, the ultimate law of oneness. We can all change our patterns of spiral destruction, through embracing the what we know is true. ~with love

The Light is Your Heart

From the day you entered into this world,

the Universe had been conspiring with all of life.

The domino had been cast,

on a path to bring your energy into light.

In this light, your path paved the way to each precious moment that was stored

in the treasure of your heart.

Today we celebrate you, on your journey,

transforming your life and impacting those within and outside your grasp.

May your life continue to blossom in the light

and be held constant in the rhythms of life by the roots of spirit.

My New “Strong”

My new definition of strong moved from my normal thinking and feeling of hard, driven, and pure muscle power to one that feels more aligned and centered.

Strong has become a place of connection to my life energy, and alignment to that energy. Strength from the source of our own energy, created and nurtured from all of life that is rooted in our past beyond our memory of this life, and all of life that has nourished us physically, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually. True source that was cultivated from the oneness and harmony of the positives and negatives that shaped us.

My new “strong” is a practice.
Connection to my center of truth, and embodying it in my words and actions as I move through my daily life. ~